Kelly Tsai Workshop Free Write

Last Thursday Kelly Tsai (Def Jam poet) did a spoken word movement workshop at my school. It was really fun, but the great part was the free write part. She had us do two and this is one of them. It is entitled "What you don't know about me is.."

"What you don't know about me is.."

What you don't know about me is I am a person who does not take any bs. I may let people walk all over me, but truly I hate it. I am a no nonsense kinda girl. If you do not like the heat in the kitchen then get the hell out. So what I am a "nice" person? Us nice people have limitations as well. So quit with the wanna be thug attitude because honestly it is not cute. I did not want to throw away 7 years of friendship, but you with your stupidness forced me to break free. I hate being tied down, and I resent the people that try to restrain me. I am a honest person. I do not try to sugarcoat anymore so I yes I am blunt. That is what you don't know about me after 7 years. I have changed, but I have changed for the better. 

We were given  5 minutes to write whatever came out on paper without crossing out anything. I was shocked when the 5 minutes was up to see what was on paper. It is crazy what the subconscious mind is thinking. I have another free write which I will post tomorrow. I should do more free writes because I did feel a lot better after doing it and its pretty interesting to see what comes out after you are done.

DOE Rant

As many of you know I am going to become a  teacher. The  thing is the application for the city is long and complicated. Like seriously I understand they have to know they are hiring good teachers, but why is the application so long and difficult? After I do this long application I am not even guaranteed a job! I am already sick and tired of the DOE and I didn't even start teaching for it yet! oy!

Darling I miss you

Everyone knows about my troubles with people I consider best friends. Me + best friend= all out war. I started recently talking again to one of my former best friends again. She sounds so mature and so different. The only reason I knew it was her because the bbm icon was her and her now fiancee. It is crazy how much people can change within two years. I myself, have grown tremendously during these last two years. Talking to her again has made me miss our best days of our lives. Our daily gallivanting throughout Brooklyn. Our sleepovers. Yes granted I have sorors now and I can do that with them, but it is not the same. My sisters do have a special place in my heart no doubt, but besides my sister-in-law who I love :), was like a true sister to me. She has recently became engaged and I am very happy for her. Engagements are supposed to be a beautiful thing. Time definitely does things to people. Sometimes I wish the events of 2009 did not happen, but I guess it had to. I think if it they did not happen, we would not be the people we are today. Me- a wiser young lady and she- a soon to be wife. Although I hate to admit it I have to say... darling I miss you....

2010 saw the ending of my friendship with my male best friend. Dating him was the worst thing I could have done. Actually it was the best thing I could have done. I actually saw the type of person he actually is. He is not a good person. He was such a sweetie when we were younger, but let his insecurities get the best of him. His insecurities have turned him into a bitter and nasty person. I wished him a happy new year to be nice and I told him how I am editing my friends. He told me he is only attracted to me so quit trying so I made him acquaintance. I learned he isn't the love of my life and he is not my soul mate. We would work great together, but he is too deep in bitterness. He is always claiming he is lonely and such, but that is not my problem anymore. I miss our deep convos though. Those were amazing. Although I should not be doing this I do have to say.... darling I miss you...

Although I see myself more rekindling a friendship with my first paragraph I do not know if it can actually can happen. Her boyfriend is very possessive and ever since I did hurt her he would not want her to do anything with me. He forgets that if it was not for me they will not be together- a point i highly STRESS. I will just let time happens and see what it does. As with my second paragraph... I really do not know. I love that kid, I surely do, but I do not think he deserves me as a friend.

Darling I miss you....
Love always your favorite girl,
Trish <3

I need to sleep.. BUT...

Happy New Years Folks!

I intend to make 2011 my year. I know that 2011 will have its share of pitfalls, but I know I can conquer what is need to conquer once I put my faith in it and good hard work. Currently working on this winter course to make sure my GPA gets up to a 2.7 so I do not have anything to worry about. They already started calling my house... yes woman.. I know I have to discuss about my GPA... its a 2.68. Not a 2.7, but clearly very very close. She cannot exactly be upset... I went from a 2.1 to a 2.68 in basically 3 years. That was extremely tough. I have good faith that I will be okay, but you know how nerves work. Other than that I was looking into grad school and a possible volunteer stint with the Lasallian Volunteers. We will see what happens.

One more semester of College... Yayy?

On Tuesday I finished my 7th semester of college. I am pleased with my grades, but I am still stressing. I need a 2.7 to student teach and because of my rocky first year I am basically a hundredth away. It okay though. I know within my bones and with God's will I will student teach in February. I am very proud of myself that I did come this far. There are still so many people my age who have not even step foot in college. Here I am 21 years old, about to get a degree. I am not strung out on drugs or have a drinking problem. I do not have a child out of wedlock. I can say I did well. The adventure of life after college is still a mystery. I know the basics. Apply to grad school, and also the DOE to get a teaching job in the NYC Public Schools. It is crazy how 10 years ago I used to say I would go to college and now I am almost done. Life happens when you are having fun!

Holdin You Down (Goin in Circles)/Changes

Why is it me and this guy always get at odds at around the same time each year. I have been searching emails, since I do not have my laptop at the moment, and from 2008 we always had an issue around this time of year. I do not get it. It seems like it would never fail. We both have grown from those cute 15 year olds- we are both 21. From past messages I found how both romanticized about having a relationship. We finally had one and it ended terribly because my high levels of stress. I admit it this time it was my fault. He always finds a way to push me away. Always. I always find a way to forgive him. Always. So tell me this.. why is it we always have a rock relationship nowadays? We are always off and on. There can be months we talk to each other and months when we don't speak a word to each other. Yet beyond all the bickering and all that nonsense we love each other. I cry every time I miss him. I guess its my way of coping from my mistake. I love him with all my heart. Yes you may say I am 21 and I am too young to know how that feels, but I think my tears are enough. I know in my heart we will make up back again, but until then I am left to sweep up the pieces...  once again

Too much red meat... bad for you?

I have noticed right before I start menstruation these past few months I have had the craving for burgers. The last time I had a physical done I did have blood work done and it showed that I am not anemic. I did learn that when a person has such a craving for meat like I do it is because the body is probably low on iron. I did try iron pills, but nothing is as good a juicy burger.. well done of course. There are the studies that say that too much red meat is not good for you. Well too much of anything is not good for you. My thing is if I only have these indulgence once every month is it still bad for me?