This is a letter. I may send or I may not send it out. Post comments and tell me if its good or not. I need opinions
I may not have anger issues, or may not need anger management. I fight for what right and what I think is best. You may not agree with it, but everyone knows its best. You may not think its right, but you are controlling your destiny. Being a wholesome person isn't easy, but I try. I went above and beyond to be the best and perfect friend I can be. I feel like that has been shot to hell. I don't understand because my other best friends say I am such a terrific person and others can't see that. All they see is the violent outbursts and the yelling I have done. I am tired of pretending that I am such a perfect person when I know fully I am not. No one is. Why should I be the scapegoat when everyone has faults. I tried protecting you from all of this, but of course being hard headed didn't help. I have spent countless nights trying to figure out is this karma trying to bite me in the ass for all the wrongs that I have done in my life? Where did I go wrong like honestly? Tell me what I did wrong? I sit here thinking maybe I need psychiatric help because I do indeed have issues such as anger. Last week I proved to myself that I do not need it. I controlled my anger, and I didn't have any outbursts. I know yay me! All what has happened shouldn't have happened, but it did. People say things happens for a reason. That God has a plan for everyone. I think sometimes this happened because He was trying to show me that I shouldn't bend over backwards for certain people because they don't really truly appreciate it. They say they do but do they really? Or maybe this was Him trying to tell me you can't fix everything that needs to be fixed. Or maybe that I truly have problems. I really don't know. Well whatever it is I hope you see that I have calmed down, and I am ready to talk. Not contacting helps either but its whatever. Hope life is great for you cause I know mine is for the most part.
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