Kelly Tsai Workshop Free Write

Last Thursday Kelly Tsai (Def Jam poet) did a spoken word movement workshop at my school. It was really fun, but the great part was the free write part. She had us do two and this is one of them. It is entitled "What you don't know about me is.."

"What you don't know about me is.."

What you don't know about me is I am a person who does not take any bs. I may let people walk all over me, but truly I hate it. I am a no nonsense kinda girl. If you do not like the heat in the kitchen then get the hell out. So what I am a "nice" person? Us nice people have limitations as well. So quit with the wanna be thug attitude because honestly it is not cute. I did not want to throw away 7 years of friendship, but you with your stupidness forced me to break free. I hate being tied down, and I resent the people that try to restrain me. I am a honest person. I do not try to sugarcoat anymore so I yes I am blunt. That is what you don't know about me after 7 years. I have changed, but I have changed for the better. 

We were given  5 minutes to write whatever came out on paper without crossing out anything. I was shocked when the 5 minutes was up to see what was on paper. It is crazy what the subconscious mind is thinking. I have another free write which I will post tomorrow. I should do more free writes because I did feel a lot better after doing it and its pretty interesting to see what comes out after you are done.

DOE Rant

As many of you know I am going to become a  teacher. The  thing is the application for the city is long and complicated. Like seriously I understand they have to know they are hiring good teachers, but why is the application so long and difficult? After I do this long application I am not even guaranteed a job! I am already sick and tired of the DOE and I didn't even start teaching for it yet! oy!

Darling I miss you

Everyone knows about my troubles with people I consider best friends. Me + best friend= all out war. I started recently talking again to one of my former best friends again. She sounds so mature and so different. The only reason I knew it was her because the bbm icon was her and her now fiancee. It is crazy how much people can change within two years. I myself, have grown tremendously during these last two years. Talking to her again has made me miss our best days of our lives. Our daily gallivanting throughout Brooklyn. Our sleepovers. Yes granted I have sorors now and I can do that with them, but it is not the same. My sisters do have a special place in my heart no doubt, but besides my sister-in-law who I love :), was like a true sister to me. She has recently became engaged and I am very happy for her. Engagements are supposed to be a beautiful thing. Time definitely does things to people. Sometimes I wish the events of 2009 did not happen, but I guess it had to. I think if it they did not happen, we would not be the people we are today. Me- a wiser young lady and she- a soon to be wife. Although I hate to admit it I have to say... darling I miss you....

2010 saw the ending of my friendship with my male best friend. Dating him was the worst thing I could have done. Actually it was the best thing I could have done. I actually saw the type of person he actually is. He is not a good person. He was such a sweetie when we were younger, but let his insecurities get the best of him. His insecurities have turned him into a bitter and nasty person. I wished him a happy new year to be nice and I told him how I am editing my friends. He told me he is only attracted to me so quit trying so I made him acquaintance. I learned he isn't the love of my life and he is not my soul mate. We would work great together, but he is too deep in bitterness. He is always claiming he is lonely and such, but that is not my problem anymore. I miss our deep convos though. Those were amazing. Although I should not be doing this I do have to say.... darling I miss you...

Although I see myself more rekindling a friendship with my first paragraph I do not know if it can actually can happen. Her boyfriend is very possessive and ever since I did hurt her he would not want her to do anything with me. He forgets that if it was not for me they will not be together- a point i highly STRESS. I will just let time happens and see what it does. As with my second paragraph... I really do not know. I love that kid, I surely do, but I do not think he deserves me as a friend.

Darling I miss you....
Love always your favorite girl,
Trish <3

I need to sleep.. BUT...

Happy New Years Folks!

I intend to make 2011 my year. I know that 2011 will have its share of pitfalls, but I know I can conquer what is need to conquer once I put my faith in it and good hard work. Currently working on this winter course to make sure my GPA gets up to a 2.7 so I do not have anything to worry about. They already started calling my house... yes woman.. I know I have to discuss about my GPA... its a 2.68. Not a 2.7, but clearly very very close. She cannot exactly be upset... I went from a 2.1 to a 2.68 in basically 3 years. That was extremely tough. I have good faith that I will be okay, but you know how nerves work. Other than that I was looking into grad school and a possible volunteer stint with the Lasallian Volunteers. We will see what happens.