My best guy friend and I have been friends for now five years. We met through myspace because I thought he attended a youth conference in the summer of 2004. I was looking for people who attended the conference when he popped up. I thought he did, and added him. We started talking from then. He was 15 too and also was a rising sophomore. Thing is he didn't go. Unlike my school, who took everyone who wanted go which was only like 15 of us, his school did not take everyone who was part of the community service youth group (Lasallian Youth- Faith, Service, & Community! Our slogan!) So we started talking and he haven't stopped since. For the next two years we talked all the time. Sometimes everyday, but mostly on weekends when we were home from school. Between junior and senior years we sorta lost contact. I was always wrapped up in a boyfriend during high school, and I guess that took up my time. We always wanted to meet up, but since we were so young our parents wouldn't let us leave the house to hang out. The winter of our senior year had a girlfriend. That is when we started to talk again. He was in love and he was happy. I was happy for him. I had a boyfriend at the time, but that ended during the holidays. Fast forward to our freshman year of college. Our second semester was the first time we met each other. We met each other and they was an attraction there. You felt the tension as we met each other face to face and ate together. That night led to us hooking up, and a hardship for our friendship. He told his girlfriend at the time what had happened, and I had to deal for a year of her hating me, not wanting him to talk to me, or ever seeing me again. We still remained friends, and he continued to date her while i found myself other guys. We had a special love for each other, but we just kept it under wraps just so other problems wouldn't arise. Last year around this time I wasn't even friends with him really. We went on a date last year because his girlfriend at the time said he could. Well that turned into a huge fight which turned into me loosing him. I was all choked up about it, but I learned to deal. He broke up with that girlfriend in the beginning of this year. She left him saying she didn't want him anymore. One day while I was at school practicing a little before his birthday in February I sent him an IM saying hello. He told me what happened, and we patched up our friendship. I started dating my ex and he started dating another girl ( who now is his ex). At first he would always complain about she does this and she does that. I remember his other best friend and I telling him and asking him why he was with her. This summer we hung out a few times, and this fall I even met his girlfriend. She was pretty nice, but you can see at times she was immature. She is fresh out of high school.
How does this translate into today- here in now?
He recently broke up with that girlfriend. So of course we have been talking. We haven't stopped talking since we picked back up in February. For the first time I told him how much I loved him. He told me not too long ago that last year he was in love with me as well as he his other girlfriend. We both realized that we love each other still. We both are so special to each other, and place each other in high regards. They were many a time I wanted to cut him off because he would be such an asshole, but when it all comes down to it he is the only guy that hasn't left me. He made me realize that I have loved him for at least three years. My love for him did become an issue, but after I saw nothing was going to happen I just suppressed it, and dated my ex. He always would go I am not your boyfriend, and I would tell him I DONT WANT YOU TO BE! Now that we have the perfect opportunity we have hit that crossroad. Should we or should we not? I am willing to give it a shot, but he is afraid of ruining our friendship. We have such a great connection, and we are more alike than different. I am little taller than him, and I am black, but hey its just dating. Well he is still my bestie and that is awesome, but I have always wondered... what if we do date? Would he be the love of my life?
1 comment:
There is a whole lot of NO-NO's here! You say he is the one that never left you but you fail to realize honey, he was never yours. Leave that boy alone. He has proven--he will always be unfaithful, unrealiable, and cause you more stress in your life than you ever could imagine. Stop looking for guys that will make your love life easy. This is guy sounds like an asshole and will always be an asshole. he needs to do a lot of growing up before he can be decent.
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